1st semester of my junior is over! well pretty much so. i have like 3 exams left and im done!!!!! dang.
i am now 21! 
so… yesterday was my birthday. honestly i wasnt really thrilled to be 21 because of the fact that im getting older. hahaha. seriously…. time was going by sooo fast. i remember thinking it was 9pm and 3 more hours until my bday.. but what felt like 10 minutes, 2 hours passed by! haha, and then the next thing you know its 11:30pm. I remember feeling anxious because i wanted to do something crazy before i turned 21, something i wouldn’t do. but it was too late. lol. instead i had my first drink at 12am. HAHAHA At first i felt like i was doing something illegal. LOL. but of course i wasnt since i became LEGAL!! but still…. it took me awhile to even drink some. let me tell you…drinking isnt that great. it was my first time every laying lips on alcohol and it was disgusting. hahaha. there’s no taste.. almost like carbonated water with an aftertaste of soybean that burned your throat. hahaha. i couldn’t even finish all of it. i think i took like 5 gulps and just couldn’t do it because it tasted nasty. NOTE: PLEASE DRINK LEGALLY and RESPONSIBLY!! LOL. i don’t know why people drink if its nasty… however… later in the day, my roomies surprised me with dinner (THANK YOU GIRLS!! LOVE YOU ALL <3 ) and i had a good time with friends some even bought me drinks.. and some were pretty tasty. couldn’t really taste the alcohol. one ,an older brother got me, was really good! it kinda tasted like a Popsicle.. it was fruity and sweet another one was alright but too strong…oh.. and i found out that i posess the necessary enzymes that wont get me red! HAHAHA
dang… just noticed that this post is about drinking…. its my first.. and i promise you wont see anything like this again. hahahaha. yea.. im not the party hardy drinking type. i think i’ll only do it on special occassions such as champagne at a wedding or something at a reunion, etc. but i wont be doing this again anytime soon. hahaha. but yea.. being 21 is alright. it feels weird because im getting old and the fact that i will only get older.
i guess its been awhile since i “blogged.” so time for a little update…
basically after my whole oh-chem fiasco… i decided NOT to go to med school. its crazy that one class can change your whole future plans… its still pretty early and i can always retake the class and whatever.. but i feel like its too late.. and honestly, i don’t have the passion for it anymore. sometimes i feel like i gave up and im taking the easy way out… but unlike my chem 102 thing… i don’t really regret it. so i guess its a good thing as well. However, i did find something i really want to do. I decided to stick with my major (Psychology) and just change my concentration from Pre-Med to a different concentration in my major. so yea… graduate school, get my masters or something like that and become like a clinical psychologist, or an industrial psychologist, or even some kind of therapist. either way… i’m helping people/community
i make my future plans.. and i worry.. but i read this one verse… PROVERBS 16:9 ~~> In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
PEACE. i was like oh myy…GG. that verse was crucial. For me, its hard not to worry about the future and my career and life after college and w/e, but in the end it always comes to trusting in Him and being faithful. whatever is his will…..
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT????!!!! 1st semester is practically OVER!! after thanksgiving break, its finals and then BAM. semester is OVER! crazzyyyy. hahaha. it feels like the semester just started, but its the end. dang. time just flies by.
ok.. so here’s the skinny:
im taking organic chemistry. enough said. haha.
but yea…im doing HORRIBLY!!!! partially its my fault because im never fully prepared for quizzes and exams. ::sigh:: anyhow… i am making a big decision that is career changing! originally i was planning to go to med school but i am changing to stick to the psychology route. In the beginning I was so passionate about wanting to become a doctor so i could help people and go on medical missions. but i don’t think that’s going to happen… I lost that passion. I mean i still want to help people… but not through being a M.D.
this is going to shock my family. my parents kinda have an idea of what I want.. but they still have that hope that I would stick with the medical school thing. oh geez. At the same time, I want to do what I want to do.. but I want to please my parents as well. idk.
well… i have until friday to make my decision. whether to withdraw from organic chemistry or not. if i decide to stick with the med. school route then i have to do EXTREMELY well on the upcoming quizzes and exams.. like ACE them janks. hahaha but if i decide to go with the graduate school thing.. i don’t need organic chem. hmm… what to do?
does it seem like im giving up? like taking the easy way out? sometimes i feel like i am….. i just want to live a happy, not so stressful life.
i’ll let you know on what i do. probably by thursday.
(gotta pray about this… hopefully God will answer. have to be FAITHFUL! )
can you believe it? the semester is almost over… that means its CRUNCH TIME. its time to get on it. that means no more playing (mm…maybe a little) but definitely more studying!! The semester is halfway done and i guess a lot has happened: (This might be a LONG post and me just blabbing…)
1. OiCF/Leadership:
This has definitely been and still a blessing to me. Looking back, I don’t know where I would be if I haven’t been involved in the fellowship. I feel lucky. I always had older brothers and sisters to guide me or help me along the way, getting me to where I am, and of course God being there with me . but them always keeping me accountable and what not. I’m thankful for that. OiCF has been through a lot. there were good times and there were bad times. Right now, I feel like we are at a good place, but we still need to prayerful, because being comfortable and lazy isn’t good. We’ve been blessed and I’m so thankful for that, but still need to pray, spend time with God, and to keep accountable with one another. That seems like a problem that we’re going through. Personally, I think its hard. It’s hard for me to get past the friend level and go deeper. Mostly because I’m not the initiating type. However, if the spirit is flowing and it gets to that point… I’ll do it and I like talking about deep/meaningful things.
I would like to get to know my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ on a deeper level. I would like to know how they are doing, what they are going through, and just to know them more and be accountable, and not just be on the surface-level type of friend.. you know? I guess I just need to take the initiative.. and with that.. I’m working on it. hahaha
I am a bible study leader and it is such a blessing. I love our fresh gals! they are so eager to learn more of the word and I see the hunger in them to want to know God more personally. I learn from them and from my own QTs and research time. Its good. I wish i could spend more time with them and get to know them more… but its been hard because of time and schedule stuff. Hopefully next semester won’t be too busy.
2. I guess it’s relationship time this semester….. HAHAHAHAHAHA ;P
i mean… its either someone is starting one or is interested in someone and etc. idk… i guess its cool. hahaha but with me, idk… i just leave it up to the man upstairs. haha. like i said before… im open but im not stupid. hahaha. i know who isn’t for me and who is… if i don’t, then i have trustful and close brothers and sisters that will tell me otherwise. but yea.. we shall see. hahaha oh that reminds me: this past sunday, Dr. Becton of GABC spoke a crucial message. In one part he was talking about relationships. He gave out 6 points. One point was like “dannngggg” hahaha. he made a point that we shouldn’t look for anyone but for that someone. because as God made Adam specificaly Eve, he made someone especially for you. So we should search for that someone that would complete us and not just anyone who would just be a companion.
3. Football.
I’m on the intramural co-ed football team. I guess i’ve been on the same team since freshman year. its fun.. but honestly… i feel bored of it sometimes. I guess its because we played so often and way too much. its different when playing.. HAHA but still…. i mean its fun.. but its whatever to me now. When it comes to school and football… i have to choose school because that has higher priority to me right now.. I don’t mind one time events such as break 31 and the jmu tourney…which im pretty excited for but football every week… dahhh. hahaha. why can’t we do some other sports? like soccer or baseball or softball orbasketball or something… something different yet fun? idk
4. JMU Trip
This past weekend, a couple of us went to go visit Harrisonburg. Down at JMU, it is so different from Richmond. It is SO QUIET! hahaha. Jokingly, All of us were like “where are the police? where’s the noise at?!” hahaha. seriously.. you could hear “Nature”. but it was good. We stopped by the famous A&T’s (it was sooo delicious) and then dessert at Klines (its alright.. hahaha. I shouldve gotten their flavor of the week or w/e.. because their vanilla kinda reminded me of McDonald’s ice cream cones…yea…). After eating we went to “BLUE HOLE.” that was pretty fun. haha. i think all the stress that i had went away when i went into that cold, blue water. It was SO COLD. it reminded me of Tech’s Cascades but it was so cold. for a split second you can’t think. yet it was SO refreshing.
Oh.. and it was good seeing the people there as well
overall… it was fun/relaxing trip :]
This new music video by colbie Caillat is cute! the song is catchy too.
it definitely shows that looks isn’t important.
This is just for fun. don’t you have those questions that ur just curious/ ever wondered about? here are some that i found: some of these actually make you think. i think its pretty interesting.
- Do fish ever sneeze?
- Can sour cream go bad?
- What is the speed of dark?
- Why do clocks run clockwise?
- Why do doughnuts have holes?
- What do you call a male ladybug?
- Is there another word for synonym?
- What’s another word for Thesaurus?
- Why isn’t 11 pronounced onety one?
- Why don’t sheep shrink when it rains?
- Can vegetarians eat animal crackers?
- Why does unscented hair spray smell?
- Why is it that rain drops but snow falls?
- Why is “abbreviated” such a long word?
- Why isn’t there a mouse-flavored cat food?
- How and why do horses sleep standing up?
- Why do ketchup bottles have narrow neck?
- Is a clear conscience a sign of a bad memory?
- What does the phrase “Now then” really mean?
- How do you tell when you’re out of invisible ink?
- Why are people immune to their own body odor?
- Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?
- Do they use sterilized needles for fatal injections?
- If the #2 pencil is the most popular, why is it still #2?
- What happens if you get scared half to death twice?
- If man evolved from apes, why do we still have apes?
- Why do we drive on parkways and park on driveways
- Why does the sun lighten our hair, but darken our skin?
- Why can’t women put on mascara with their mouth closed?
- If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?
- Why don’t you ever see the headline “Psychic Wins Lottery”?
- If they squeeze olives to get olive oil, how do they get baby oil?
- If a word in the dictionary were mispelled, how would we know?
- Why are they called apartments when they’re all stuck together?
- When dogs bark for hour on end, why don’t they ever get hoarse?
- If 7-11 is open 24 h/d, 365 d/yr, why are there locks on the doors?
- Why do we put suits in a garment bag and put garments in a suitcase?
- Why is the period of the day with the slowest traffic called the rush hour?
- Why are there flotation devices under plane seats instead of parachutes?
- How do they keep all the raisins in a cereal box from falling to the bottom?
- Why is the telephone key pad arranged differently than a calculator key pad?
- How many roads does a man need to travel down before he admits he is lost?
- If the police arrest a mime, do they tell him that he has the right to remain silent?
- Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, while dishwashing liquid is made with real lemons?
- When you pick something up so your hands are full, why does someplace on your face start to itch?
- Why is it that when you’re driving and looking for an address, you turn down the volume on the radio?
- Why is it that when you send something by truck it’s called a shipment, but when you send it by ship it’s called cargo?
I DONATED blood TODAY!!!!
it was my first time! and it was an interesting one. hahaha.
so i found out that my hemoglobin level was 13.2
Blood Pressure is : 92/63
Pulse: 83
Temperature: 98.0.
yeaaaaa. hahaha. i want to know my blood type though. parentals tell me I’m type-O. but i don’t knoww… i’ll find out in 3 weeks.
anyhow… so i went in as a nervous/anxious/excited person and was a bit scared but i knew the perks to donating was FREE FOOD and a TSHIRT!!! hahaha just kidding. but it was for a good cause such as SAVING LIVES, and plus… i always wanted to do it but never had the time and today was the day.
basically.. i almost fainted. HAHA. according to my blood pressure.. i have a pretty decent but still kinda on the low side blood pressure and that is my reasoning for almost fainting. It was towards the end when i was almost done filling up my little (not really) baggie of blood. I started to get restless, anxious and butterflies-in-the -stomach kinda feeling. then i started to get a bit nauseous. but i just shook that feeling off.. because i thought it was just nothing and that i was just imagining it. but no. i really started to get dizzy and i called my person over and she gave me the necessesites (soda and an ice packet). in the end… i did not faint, gave blood, and got my free food and tshirt. hahaha
oh.. and i found out that walking up stairs…yes.. WALKING… is considered strenuous exercise. well according to my roommates it is. but i guess it make sense because i almost fainted going to class.
anyhow… everything is good
i should be studying.. what am i doing?? HAHAHAHAHA
stupid organic chemistry.. how i hate you. hahaha if i don’t get a good grade in this stupid class, i will be MIA. i say that.. but i don’t know.. i need to get on it.
alkdjf;ajfd;lajfdlajfdlajsfdlajfds. DAHHHHHHHH!! ::sigh::
and maybe i shouldnt have posted the last blog…. that was out of impulse… HAHAHAHA
ok.. back to studying.
if people are reading this now… and you know who you are… you might think “woooww..this girl..” but i am a girl… and its that time where every girl think about this. HAHAHAHA
the topic of relationships. it feels weird letting everyone know of my status. haha. almost makes me feel vulnerable but its on my mind right now and i have to have some sense of cartharsis at the moment. ok.. so pretty much a lot of people i know are getting into relationships and it’s like “oh myy.. i have to get on it.” HAHAHA don’t worry.. im not desperate. i’ll never get to that point. if i do.. someone slap me. HAHA but someone made a good point… once youre out of college.. its a lot harder to find someone. i have a year left. GG. but its so hard to find a good guy. whyyyyyy??? HAHAHA.
its weird… i feel like im ready to date, to be in a relationship. but then again.. im scared. HAHA i mean… i never been in one before…. yea.. i know. but im proud of that too. my mindset has always been finding that one person, and thats it. so i have pretty high standards (this changed a lot. im not lowering them.. just modifying them a bit, haha). anyhow.. i know a lot of girls that are like me. never have dated before / never having a bf. if only a guy was like that… waiting until he found his “other half.” but my “vision” of the “perfect” guy and what i just described…. it is really rare. more importantly, I just “want” someone who puts God. someone who doesn’t get caught up into the worldly things such as partying or cursing, etc.. someone who is like me but different at the same time. just a “good/nice guy”. and the list could go on and on and on.. but a close brother of mine gave a good point to me that its not about what qualities I want in a guy but the flaws im willing to accept.
so the question is: what kind of flaws can i deal with/accept??
answer: i don’t know, but i do know some things that I can’t and will not accept but yea… like most of my roomies and friends… we’re open to a realtionship. HAHAHAHAHAHA 
if only God could just send the guy he wants for me. that’ll be the best. hahahaha we’ll see what happens. its all in His hands.
